Monday, September 14, 2009

Fractal: In Honor of Defying Gravity

I have to admit that I mostly watched this strange "Grey's Anatomy in Space", because its title caught my attention. Apparently it premiered at the beginning of August...but I never had a chance to watch it until last night. I was admittedly saddened that there were no references to the song with which it shares its name. (Not that I really thought there would be...I just love Wicked...so it would have been nice!) :)

Anyway...back to the point of this post. It was announced today that Defying Gravity has been canceled! I would say that I don't care, since the show was pretty much a lame soap opera that occurs in space....except I loved the very end of last night's episode!

I tried (unsuccessfully) to locate a video clip,and my explanation would never do it justice. So I'll just say that the astronauts found BETA. And though we (the viewers) are not allowed the full vantage point of the astronauts, we are permitted a small glimpse. This snapshot reveals a beautiful fractal tomato garden with whale-like musical calls. (See...my explanation is definitely not doing it justice...you're going to have to trust me...it really was beautiful!)

Anyway...it reminded me of an essay I wrote several years ago (and I do mean several! I was an undergrad at the time!) in response to the following quote:

“The most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious. It is the fundamental emotion that stands at the cradle of true art and true science.” – Albert Einstein, Living Philosophies, 1931

I decided to post it here as motivation to start blogging again. I really wanted to edit it, because it's slightly long and the perfectionist in me doesn't like to "publish" anything that isn't finished! But I decided to post it in it's original state.

So if you haven't lost interest yet and feel you can forgive the amateur writing and lack of focus, feel free to read on...



Albert Einstein is a wonderfully insightful man and I admire all that he accomplished in his lifetime. Though he was a brilliant man who strove to discover so much, he also understood that mystery is a beautiful thing.

I love learning anything, especially pertaining to math, science, and art. Though many see those three as separate entities, I am drawn to them because of their connections and dependency upon one another. To study any of them without the others would be an injustice to each subject. As I see them intertwining throughout the world in dance, sports, medicine, machinery, and countless other examples, perhaps the most beautiful, interesting, and inexplicable exists in nature.

While fractal geometry can explain so much from the design of an amusement park ride to the shape of a simple maple leaf, those who have no knowledge of these algorithms are able to enjoy the created and natural world just the same. I love that we have computers that can repeat an equation so many times that we can see shapes and patterns emerge, but I know that an equation can never explain the beauty and mystery of nature. “Clouds are not spheres, mountains are not cones, coastlines are not circles, and bark is not smooth, nor does lightning travel in a straight line.” (The Fractal Geometry of Nature, 1982)

Newton believed that the entire future could be predicted through his laws and yet the chaos theory shows why that is not true. Small changes in any complicated system will have great effects. Yet, we see the same general patterns again and again, never repeating themselves exactly. The unpredictable and predetermined together unfold to make our world what it is.

Each day we are making new discoveries and it is wonderful. I am thankful that we no longer believe that the flu is caused by the influence of the stars or that the earth is flat, and I wonder what it is we will discover in my lifetime. And yet I feel that knowledge is a dangerous thing as it ruins the simple pleasure of life.

Life’s delight is not in the single moments of discovery but the journey as a whole. Each moment of life is a small mystery. Will it stop raining soon? Will I go to graduate school next year? Will I live to be a hundred? Though many of our questions we can answer with some confidence, we also know that there is always an element of uncertainty. Life does not follow our plans, and thus our plans are changed to follow life.

Just the same, Science is full of theories and laws that are ever-changing in a world of discovery. We often find that the things we thought or believed to be true are in fact not the case. Will we ever discover it all? Certainly, not. As we answer one question we are faced with hundreds more.

Science is the study of mystery and art the expression of it.

As an artist conveys his message, he is articulating his own inquiries of life. He communicates his journey and discoveries through each choice of color or placement as he creates a masterpiece in any media. And yet as each person views a play, listens to a melody, or gazes at a photograph he sees the same general piece, but never exactly the same.

Einstein’s thoughts have been echoed on more than one occasion in the 75 years since he wrote Living Philosophies, by persons of all backgrounds, education, and walks of life. I think it is best articulated in the words of the character Septimus in Tom Stoppard’s Arcadia when he states, “When we have found all the mysteries and lost all the meaning we will be alone, on an empty shore.”

The enjoyment of life is not in the pursuit of the mysterious, but in the mystery itself.

Friday, June 26, 2009

It's a Girl!!!!!!!!! :)

Meet Raelynn Rebekah



She surprised us all by arriving a month early! She made her entrance at 1:58pm on June 25th weighing in at 4lbs 9oz. Momma and baby are doing well and I'm a very proud sister and aunt.

Off to spoil a tiny baby! :)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Under Construction

My house got behind schedule during the recent rain in Florida. It's quite difficult to do electrical and plumbing work during torrential downpours. But after airing things out, replacing all the doors, and working through the weekends, they are back on track! :)


I had my pre-drywall walkthrough today. Very Fun. You can actually tell it's going to be a house now! :) And it should be done in 60 days! With the aid of a few pictures and your imagination, I am taking you on a tour of my townhouse!

After entering through the garage or front door you will find yourself in an entryway leading to my kitchen/dining/living room. What you see here is my flooring (left) and kitchen cabinets and counters.



As you walk upstairs you will see the loft and bedrooms (2) painted and carpeted in beige. Boring but neutral and ready for lots of fun decorating! (But I can't reveal all of my secrets!)


I have 2 and a half bathrooms. From left to right: counters, cabinets, paint.


And for a sneak peak at one room of decorations....my bedroom will be decorated in these colors to make me feel like I'm at the beach all the time! :)

Sunday, May 24, 2009

A path already written, but not yet uncovered.

I know I'm a bad blogger, I truly do apologize. :) But my life is boring! Consequently, I can't ever think of anything to say! :) (Pretty much I just keep a blog, so that I have a place to keep track of all of your blogs!)

So since there's not much to say about my life right now (or at least nothing I want to share with the world wide web), I'll start by sharing another lesson God has been reminding me through a song.

Disclaimers: To those of you who think it's boring when I blog about God and my faith: You should listen to the song anyway, it's a really good rock group and you might like it! To those of you who think I use Christian music too much to make my point: I promise I also read books, including my bible, and go to church...I just really like music!) :)

Anyway...the lyrics of this song remind me that sometimes life requires a second glanse and a new perspective to see the beauty in all that surrounds us. The new day isn't always what we were expecting, but sometimes it's even more beautiful.



I'm gonna sing this song
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you're like me
You need hope, coffee, and melody
So sit back down
Let the world keep spinning 'round
For yesterday's gone and today is waiting on you to show your face

It might not be
The prettiest thing that you'll ever see
But it's a new day, oh baby, it's a new day
And it might not look like
A beautiful sunrise
But it's a new day, oh baby, it's a new day

I'm a pilgrim soul
I've traveled far and come back home
This land is hard and cold
For those who long to love
And I know it might seem
That the world is crumbling
But it's me and you dancing in the kitchen at 2 am
And we're still alive

It's the calm of the storm that comes blowing in
It's the springtime saying I'm back again
The clouds that roll by
Crossing moonlight
Me and you love - everything's alright
Standing in the rain with nowhere to go
Laughing and we're spinning and I hope that you
Remember this day
For the rest of your life
Me and you love - everything's gonna be alright

And it just might be
The prettiest thing that you'll ever see
It's a new day
Oh baby, it's a new day
If you look outside
To see a beautiful sunrise
It's a new day

Joyce Meyer always says, "I used to pray for God to bless my plan". I must admit that I was and sometimes still am very guilty of this prayer. I always have my idea of how I think my life should go and how and when things should happen, but I've learned that God's plan is even better. So I'm striving for my prayer to be, "God reveal your plan for my life to me in your perfect timing. Help me to trust You to guide my steps."

This song by According to John has often been a part of my devotions during the last decade, showing up most often in decision-making times. I'd love to share the song, because it's really beautiful...but I can't find it. The lyrics will have to suffice.

All I’ve got

All I am
All my dreams and
All my plans
I’m holding back
I’m holding nothing back from you

I surrender it all
I lay it before you
For all of my days
I’ll give you the glory
You caused me to see
My heart is divided
Lord, take all of me
‘Cause I have decided
Yeah

CHORUS

All I’ve got
All I am
All my dreams and
All my plans
I’m holding back
I’m holding nothing back from you
Whatever it takes
I trust you completely
I’m here in your hands
If you need to break me

CHORUS

All I’ve got
All I am
All my dreams and
All my plans
I’m holding back
I’m holding nothing back from you
All I’ve got
All I am
All my dreams and
All my plans
I’m holding back
I’m holding nothing back from you
Hey, nothing back
Nothing back from you

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Tell Me You Remember This!



Okay...so at my church small group we do an ice breaker each week. A few weeks ago, the question was "If you could be any super hero, who would you be?". I, of course, said She-Ra!

No one at the group knew who I was talking about! Please tell me that I'm not crazy, and that all girls that grew up in the 80's wanted to be She-Ra, Princess of Power! I mean come on she was He-Man's twin sister! That alone makes her cool. Anyway...if you're still with me on this here's some other things you may recall.

You Know You Grew Up In The 80's or Early 90's If:


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You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton


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If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock"



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You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE



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Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy



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You wanted to be a Goonie



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You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"



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Two words: Hammer Pants



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You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf



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You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" (Woo ooh!)



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It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons



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L.A. Gear....need I say more?



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You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets



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You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it



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You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF"



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You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)



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You saw the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on the big screen.. and still know the turtles names



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You took lunch boxes to school... and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard



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You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot



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Homemade Levi shorts.. (the shorter the better)



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You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted



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You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence



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You remember Hypercolor t-shirts



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You remember "Where's the Beef?"



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You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man were amazing!



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You used to (and probably still do) say "What you talkin' 'bout Willis?"



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You watched the Pound Puppies



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You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own



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You owned those lil' Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls



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You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds



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After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"



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You remember Popples



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You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"



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Don't worry, be happy



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You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that



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You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac



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You had big hair and you knew how to use it



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You remember watching both Gremlins movies



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You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool...and don't even flinch when people refer to them as "NKOTB"



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You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell," The ORIGINAL class



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Gummy Bears were not just candies



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You remember when mullets were cool!



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You had a mullet!



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You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!!"



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You remember watching Rainbow Bright and & My Little Pony Tales



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You wore (or knew someone who wore) a ponytail on the side of your head



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You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten. (She's Truly Outrageous)



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You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement

Sunday, April 26, 2009

The Motions



This is another song that God has really used to speak to me lately. Sometimes I feel we are too guilty of doing good things, but for the wrong reasons. We get caught up in the day to day and forget what's important. It's hard in the business of life to keep our passion. It took a possibly life altering surgery for Matthew West to write this song. I hope that as I am making some transitions in my life this year that I will continue to examine my life and not wait for the huge moments to make me change my focus.

Monday, April 20, 2009

My New Favorite Song

I'm pretty much in love with this song...I was struggling with things before break and heard this on my way to South Carolina. Music always speaks to my heart with a clarity that can't be replicated through other mediums.

Oh and did I mention that I went to college with Meredith Andrews. I always knew she'd make it big. I need to buy her CD so I can listen to all of her songs!